i want to be skinny
i want to have eyes too big for my face
and a waist too small for my height
i want to wear jeans that
hug my figure tightly ( like a corset )
and shirts that hang from my frame
( like a hangman's noose )
i want boney fingers
and long, long legs
and a dazzling smile
and the knowledge that
girls would kill for my body
i want to be pretty, liked, beautiful,
i want to be everything scary
everything too skinny
for my own good
You're not a failure for failing by Tangled-Tales, literature
Literature
You're not a failure for failing
Her small, anxious hands
grabbed the cup, a bit too large
as it slipped down and tumbled to the ground,
the milky mess covering the carpet:
her mother let out a disapproving sigh
and rolled her eyes,
“Will you ever do anything right?”
and that’s when she began
to limit her aspirations,
so that her dreams would never be too large,
so she’d never make any mistakes
she’d never again drop the cup,
but she’d never have enough to drink.
I don’t have swag.
I have integrity.
I am not a boss.
I am a leader.
I’m not a hipster.
I do what I like.
I do not live only once.
I live every day of my life.
Theres too much inside her
Shes weak and shes tried
Of feeling like this
Too much to be alive
But just not enough to die
Every day shes finishing her dinner
Nothings every enough
With a mask made of poison
Shes falling apart
Theres too much inside her
Shes weak and shes tried
Of feeling like this
She knows bones are beautiful
But now she cuts to find them
Shes not small
You cant breathe her
Shes stopped all the lies
The games have gone away
Theres too much inside her
Shes weak and shes tried
Of feeling like this
Eating hu
Mornings filled with hunger pains,
Blood slowly dying in my veins,
Exercise then fall to the floor,
Haul body up then work out more,
Chest growing tight and lungs are weak,
Head to tired for tongue to speak,
A mirror hanging in the hall,
What I would give to have it all,
With every bite of food I fail,
Body and spirit growing frail,
Silently dining from an empty plate,
Life measured out in height and weight,
Pangs of guilt as pride begins to grow,
Rib and hip bones clearly now show,
Each extra inch breeding despair,
Body and soul now running on air,
Staring as the mirror is now too tough,
Because nothing will ever
I sit and listen quietly
To your gentle screams
No matter how hard you try
This is going to be a dream
No matter how hard you close your eyes
Or how quick you dry your tears
I'll come after you
I'll fill you with numerous fears
Running away won't help
Neither will trying to hid
Ill follow you wherever you go
And you'll come back to me with lies
You say it won't get out of hand
That you'll control it this time
But both of us know the truth
That you will never be fine
I'm the one you rely on
I'm the thing for you
You can't beat this fatal disease
You can't make it through
No matter how hard you try and deny it
You will n